Holy fuck, why are there not more promos like this?
This is amazing!
This is to every single person in my life at this point… Because some people think I am faking or truly think it is an act.
When I was in year 12 of my school, I started to really feel the pressure of school work piling up on me all of a sudden. I couldn’t focus on my homework or coursework, and I’d go into school and try to do as much as I could when I could force myself to focus, but there would always be something that wasn’t finished. So you’d have to go to the teacher and try to explain why you couldn’t do your homework.
It got so hard to always have to give an excuse every other day because every single time the teachers would look at you like you didn’t even try. It got so hard that when the homework had to be in, I just wouldn’t go to school. I’d miss a day here and there, catch up if I could.
But you have to catch up missed work from your friends, and I didn’t have many of those, least of all in the classes I was taking.
So it would take me so long to catch up that I had even less focus for my homework, and I’d run away from handing stuff in that I’d miss more work and fall farther and farther behind. It snowballed and got worse, but I tried to go to school when I could convince myself that it was worth getting out of bed.
There was one class though, where I had no friends at all, and I didn’t have any idea what I was supposed to do for the module and it was due very soon, so I asked my teacher for help and she told me that if I wasn’t going to put my time into the work she wasn’t going to waste her time trying to help me.
Few things hurt more then the realisation that your teacher has given up on you.
I didn’t go to school much after that.
I never stood on my chair and told my classmates that sometimes just waking up didn’t seem worth it.
I never told the teachers that I could never focus on my work and the study clubs they had were no use because I lived miles away and I couldn’t always get home without the school bus.
I never told my ‘friends’ that somehow they’d made me hate the place I used to love.
And when bullies drove my best friend away from school, I think I’ll always regret never having followed her.